| Set
in the late seventies, this highly realistic story revolves around
the relationships of a 22-year-old quadriplegic as he meanders through
life while attending college and living in a nursing home. Though
his philosophical insight and vitality are confined by institutional
reality, he desperately seeks intensity from his experiences and meaning
from his friendships.
What
makes McCormack's story so important are the empathic and insightful profiles
of those whom he touches and who touch him. Whether it's an octogenarian
who suffers with dimensia or a struggling 20-something student whose fear
of real life stifles action, the reader feels their pain. Throughout, McCormack
weaves an interesting story of 20-something growth and change amid his
personal search for purpose and life's greater answers.
ABOUT
THE AUTHOR
Daniel
McCormack is a screenwriter and editor who lives and writes in Dayton,
Ohio. When he was twelve years old, he experienced an accident which,
while it impaired him physically, enhanced his sense of discovery
and gave him the gift of empathy. He lived in a nursing home until
the late eighties and now resides in an apartment wired with the
latest in cyber technology. He is a former editor for the "Miami
Valley Contributor" and served as Senior Editor at FictionNet. He
recently wrote and directed the full-length feature film, "Turning
The Corner."
EXCERPT
I looked across the room and saw Paula talking to Jerry. She laughed between
sentences, smoking a cigarette as he spoke and she listened. It was active
listening on her part, fueled by interest and friendship. Jerry was informal
and personal, his presence displaying the comfort they felt toward each
other.
I saw her laugh at something he said, touching his arm in familiarity.
I suddenly felt a sensate joy, an emotional satisfaction from the act I
had witnessed. The touch was minor, not sexual or provocative, but it symbolized
her social evolution; without thinking, she had achieved a closeness with
him she never would have allowed herself even three months earlier. She
had reached self-actualization, feeling comfortable around others with
or without me. I realized that was what I had really hoped for with her,
further realizing that such progress would eventually lead her away from
me.
The
euphoria left me warm, with the emotion of the moment insulating me from
thoughts of the future. The beer magnified my senses and left me fully
removed from reality.
Janet approached. The thought of their marriage left me drunk on hope,
while the thought of Paula's graduation left me sober. I wanted Bernard
and Janet to share euphoria, but I wanted to share my insight, to find
company in my appreciation of life's ultimate sadness.
"Hello, Janet," I said.
"Hi, how are you?" She sat down. "I haven't talked to you for so long,
I wanted to make sure I at least saw you tonight. How've you been?"
"Fine, just fine."
Janet occasionally enjoyed being around me, an honest enjoyment that could
be recognized immediately. At those times, no one was more kind or considerate
toward me.
"Bernard told me the news; I'm very happy for you two. I hope marriage
is everything you want it to be."
"Thanks, I appreciate that," she said. "When we decided to do it, I was
so excited that I wanted to tell someone right then. I almost called you,
but I thought I better not; it was two thirty in the morning, so I-"
"I was up," I said. "I'm always up until four; if you ever want someone
to talk to, remember that."
I hoped she would remember that, that she and anyone else would have someone
to turn to at turning points in their lives.
"I will," she said, smiling maternally. "We want to have a dinner party
the night we get married; the wedding will be private, but we want everyone
to be at the dinner party. We hope you and Paula will come."
I looked at Paula, who was talking to Pete. "I really appreciate that.
No matter what happens, I appreciate you inviting me."
"Both of you," she said. Paula laughed at something Pete said.
"Yeah, well, like I say, no matter what happens, the invitation is all
that matters."
Janet looked at me, quietly confused. "Don't you see? That's all that matters.
It doesn't matter whether we show up or not you invited us today, and today's
what matters. It's like with you and Bernard; you don't appreciate him
for what he might do someday, you appreciate him for what he adds to your
life now, today. I'm sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable, it's just just
that you and he are such good people, so important, too important to worry
about things that aren't real yet."
The future, an ogre symbolized in Paula's independence, had driven me beyond
their marriage. "I love you both, I hope you know that. I just want you
two to always be happy, and happiness is only possible through appreciation."
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